“rainy monday and i have to think of something to do again...oh, i hope the schools meeting doesn’t discourage me.  i’m so easily discouraged.”

no, really running away with myself here, slow down, put your head under the covers, whoa!

breathe. okay. all i have to do today is fill out the forms, i can do that, and take them to jackie and meet the team at 11:30, i can do that.  whew.  then i can read in the afternoon?  or something?…

yesterday i had about a million ideas, woolfcamp, knitting projects, teaching, and wanted to act on them all and by the time i got home i’d run through them and activiated some and i sit here panting.

1.  went to the school district meeting, which turned out to be an info session on an outside program the district is adopting to fast track people like me into teaching certification.  suddenly it was a quick way to get certified as a teacher of english in florida, from which i will be able to add on art, for which i’m eligible for hiring with my degree, all before next fall’s start date and for only $400, instead of all the money it would otherwise cost, and i registered for it last night online and i’m all set to start the program.

2.  then finally made contact with Charles Washington, who assured me that this program was indeed the way to go and in the meantime he’s making some calls to connect me with somebody and maybe get me into a classroom in a couple of months, and I could teach until early afternoon and then do the parks department in late afternoon and evening...meanwhile doing the certification program to be ready for fall....

3.  meanwhile, earlier in the afternoon i’d realized that the perfect thing to fill up the other half of my work week at present would be to work at NOLA cafe, so i stopped by and talked to the guy, who sounded like he was interested, so at that point i was envisioning working 19 hours teaching art and 20 hours or so at NOLA and painting.  now there’s all this else, including rigorous self-study, and whoa!  what am I doing?

what do I want to do?  I would like to teach art at the parks department for 19 hours and paint and do the certification thing for awhile.  that’s about it, i think, although i could do some nola, too, if that comes up.  but at this point, I don’t want to overwhelm myself with extra teaching before the fact, i’m already overwhelmed.  of course, that would, if it came, give me security and a foot in the door and insurance and etc, i think.  and it would be off for summer, when i’m on fulltime with the art teaching for the parks department, by which time i hope to have the certification thing done…

yelp! oh, i don’t know, i’ll just hafta see what happens, won’t i?  i certainly am getting good response for all this.  and I had to convince myself to go to this meeting last night, whooooop!  but today, today, i take the forms to jackie and meet the rest of the crew.  then I’m gonna rest (at last!) in the afternoon.

i never wanted to teach english.  i realize the wisdom of getting certified in it and i can do that pretty easily in just a few months, but i want to teach art!  focus!  these are options, options are good.  i’m just not used to them, being younger when i used to have to scare up stuff and sell and sell and sell myself.  and it was always successful in its fashion, but at this point apparently i’ve oversold.  yikes!

anybody have any comments, please, make them!