this is no way to survive, you will NOT survive like this, e, you have to CALM DOWN!

1.  i went out to get milk and pick up a pizza, i haven’t eatern all day.  this is not the night, after years, to hie over to the grocery and buy the real food that d. has instructed me on.  not tonight.  just calm down.

2. i responded to the second principa,l who wants me to interview when i’m scheduled to be at substitute training, that i’m scheduled to be at substitute traning and could i do a late afternoon instead and i’ll call her before i go tomorrow morning (schools open at 7:30) to see what can be done.  i need to remember that, if this is the job i’m to get, it’s the job i’m to get and as long as i do everything i can, that’s the way it will be. just calm down.

3. i called d. back and left a message, so perhaps she’ll be able to call me back this evening some time.

4.  i put the laundry in the machine.  that’s doing something.

5.  no caffeine and no wine.  i don’t realy drink, but something tells me in this state i don’t want to risk even a glass of wine, i need to be calm, not nuts.  not that one glass of wine would make me nuts, i don’t mean, but i’m already nuts.  milk.  milk with my pizza.  mmmm.

6.  i shall leave a message for ot that i might have to cancel my appointment tomorrow evening, depending on what happens with this inverview schedule, that way he’ll be forewarned.  there, did that. now, calm down!

7.  meanwhile, half an hour later, the phone rang and it was j., just great, on this most insane night of many.  sigh.  hadn’t talked to her in months and months.  so i did, and what a mess i am.  oh hell, i don’t care.

i’ve had it with the pizza, perhaps some more milk and a little blog reading.  the laundry must be ready for the drier by now. and just calm DOWN.