am i depressed today? a little bit.  i don’t know what it is.  i’m not really worried about the insurance scam, i’ve been reassured about that.  i finally got to take the self-assessment on the ceritfication study, albeit not without what seems to be becoming the requisite disruption and unpleasant kerfluffle and agitation with the certifying people, but that’s better left to rot.  I even made shrimp creole last night and had it for dinner this.  and yet somehow i don’t feel like doing anything, or going anywhere, but just staying in aimlessly surfing, or knitting, or...depressed.

perhaps it’s too much agita lately.  everything seems to be a hassle somehow, and i get very little out of it.  maybe it’s because i haven’t brought in any money to speak of in over 2 months now.  well, the arts job starts monday and the nola job picks up tomorrow, so that will be remedied some.  i still have to deal with the land selling situation and all, but i’m not going to work on that at present.  i dont’ know what it is.  but it is.  here i am.  at loose ends.  so many things to do, nothing i want to.  i wonder if i will need to get a third job?  i wonder where, if so.

this, too, shall pass.