i’ve been up for hours trying to figure out money.  it seems i am making just less than i need to live on and pay my credit card minimums.  i need to figure out how to bring in some more money.  not to mention this summer when i don’t know how much i will be getting, not trusting them when they say i’ll keep making my regular paycheck.  at the beginning of january they surprised me with a 62% paycheck, rendering me unable to pay my bills without borrowing (thereby raising the bills, of course) so i don’t imagine i can believe anything they say about what i’ll be getting this summer. but even if it is full (which i doubt) it will, as i say, be just less than the minimum it takes to live on.  i need to bring in some more money again.

the stomach flu seems nearly gone, though, and has taken all sleep away with it.  i sure slept a lot in the previous 48 hours though.  good thing about the flu, actually, since i won’t be able to afford to eat anymore…

i sure hope i can hold onto this teaching gig.  they’d better start liking me more or i’m in deep doo.  again.

i’m calling it better.  look, i’m posting!  fever is down almost gone.  high point was 101 around noon yesterday (or just when i would have been going to the lawyers’, had i been going to the lawyers’), low point was 97.2, which is much nearer to my normal, this morning.  i awoke this morning saying i was going to the yarn studio, mostly because it was my one shot to see another human for another 48 hours, but of course that was just silly.  but i did manage to stay up all day, anyway, and paid a bill, and went to get some provisions (saltines, pudding, bananas, gatorade, applesauce, which took me two hours instead of one because I Wasn’t Thinking.  but now my main priority is to get to the point where i can go to bed tomorrow night confident that i can teach monday, the day i’ve set aside to begin the standardized testing we’re to undertake (the “training” for which i, myself, was undergoing when this purging presented *it*self: oops, sorry….)  purging stopped or nearly, after 12 hours, by the way, just for future information. i owe that to not having much in my stomach in the first place, i’m sure and, except for the fever part, i really was all ready for my colonoscopy, mr. demille, and it was just too bad i hadn’t thought to schedule one instead of that abandoned accident deposition.  but at least i wasn’t scheduled to go to school yesterday, thank heaven.  washing everything in the house at present.  and still still gurgling some.

poor little mee.  sudden onset of two-way purging, is it the dreaded norovirus?  i haven’t eaten much in two days, so there’s not a lot to purge (i hope it works that way) but i feel lousy and even more apprehensive than lousy: i already had taken tomorrow off, after all, to take care of the insurance scammer deposition appointment (from over a year ago,) and if i do have This Thing, will i now have to postpone?  CAN i postpone? they postponed me once already, but will i be in any shape to get to the lawyer’s office without purging on the overpriced carpet, I wonder?  oh please, don’t make me take ANOTHER day off later on for this?

stay tuned, i suppose.  stay tuned. any advice will be…blurg…..do i want to ingest plugging medication or do i want it to clear me out quick, what to do, what to do…..urg

i don’t hang out here much because everybody’s over THERE!

it’s illegal, and, given what i do, quite possibly actually immoral to blog about my work.  and what else is there?  i’m working on that.  or i’m not, but i’m wanting to work on that.  whenever i’m not in bed by 8:30, which is at least a night a week and hey, there’s always MLK day coming up, when i just hafta stay on the phone all day to find doctors and stuff because i’m off but they’re probably not and the new HMO’s finally kicked in but as for providers? time’s a-wastin’. but anyway i’m sure i’ll think of something. someday.

(it’s my birthday too, next week.  and my court deposition. woo hoo!)

since i don’t seem to bring myself to post but, y’know, feel free…

“More sunshine today along with near record warmth. Morning temperatures will climb through the 70s. The afternoon high will be in the lower to middle 80s. ”