the silent blog is ominous.  it’s just the 12 hour days have hit.  i’m well; i’m just dead.

maybe saturday?

took this evening off from the studio again, but i think i may have turned the corner.  still little voice, but more than before, and it happened when it started raining so maybe something’s cleared?

my new job was great.  i have prep all this week and don’t have to start teaching something there until next tuesday!  what a luxury. don’t know if that will be the case at the second location, but i expect to be speakable by friday again, anyway.  boy, i sure hope i’m not fooling myself about feeling better; i went into the studio planning on taking the rest of the week off but i just took tonight, thinking i can do three days a week, anyway.  and then, as i say, i felt better, after just about keeling over there at the end of school even though i was only observing.  oh well.  they (the rec dept) want some sort of documentaition that i’m hired by the schools system, the tools.  they have no clue, so they want documentation. what a joke—i wonder how long i can hold out working in both places?  it’s supposed to be designed to allow teachers afterschool work and i’d like to do it at least long enough to make up some of my shortfall, if not through next summer so i’ll have work during the summer.  unless i can see my way clear to taking the summer off?  i don’t know, i should pay bills, i suppose.  now that i will be able to.  we shall see.

i forgot to do the things i was going to do when i got/on the way home, all in my haste to leap into bed. now that i’ve awakened from my nap i remember that i was supposed to write out and mail four bills and call the alternative certification lady.  maybe i can make myself drive down to the airport before 7:30 to mail the bills?  maybe i can call the lady on some sort of lunch break tommmow?  maybe i can flap my arms and fly to the moon?

but it’s employed crap! :)

i’m all signed up, all filled out, i’m employed!  i have no sound left, although i had a little about five hours ago, it’s all gone now and tomorrow’s my first day of school.  i don’t know who i’ll be talking to, but at least i’ll be there!

back to bed until then.

can anybody tell me why, when i’ve had my laptop on for any length of time, it starts chugging?  the keyboard doesn’t respond to input without great delays, and sometimes even slide shows become flicker shows, and videos go herky jerky.  it seems to be a browser something as all i have to do is close firefox and the reopen it and it’s fixed for awhile.  i even reloaded the new firefox, but it’s still happening.  norton says i’m not viral.  what can it be?

it’s so strange not to have to worry about tomorrow.  all i have to do, after all, is call the secretary at 7am and do whatever comes next, i don’t have to worry about MAKING it come next anymore!  I could worry about what will hapeen if my voice doesn’t come back by tuesday, but really, why?  either it will or it won’t and whatever happens, something will.

stil not a sound, as a matter of fact, even less sound.  i called jan this morning to see how she was and found i could not make any sound at all. she burst out laughing, of course.  thank god for caller id?  i called dthen to say i couldn’t talk, a feat in itself, and she told me to go buy some oil of oregano, so that’s the only thing i went out for today. the first dose felt like it did me some god, although still no sound.  this second one i think maybe i put in too much honey as it didn’t taste nasty at all.

i had thought about overachieving and driving out to the school to get there at 7 rather than calling, since i don’t know if i will be able to make myself heard but then i just thought, you know?  i don’t have to do that kind of stuff anymore.  i’m just going to take it as it come. if i can’t actually work on tuesday, perhaps they’ll let me come out there anyway and prepare, or something, and start getting paid a day later.  or maybe the paperwork won’t get processed by then anyway, in which case ditto.  i’m just not going to worry about it.  not anymore, i’m through with that. i’m going to be good at this and that’s all there is to it.

i had no idea, i thought i was just on the tail ends of this cold, it was virtually calm and predictable all week.  but today i opened my mouth to speak to my companions after the service and nothing came out!  i sound like death!  it’s theraflu and closed mouthedness for me for the rest of the weekend, for sure.  how can this be, have i not been paying attention?  is this just the last phase of a cold and i hadn’t thought about it?  i thought i was over this by LAST saturday, or virtually.

for deb.

from my last sub day.  the paperwork for my hiring didn’t come through today, but she’s just sent me the physical form as an email attachment so i’m off to the walk-in clinic to get prodded.  that way maybe there’ll still be a prayer to get the rest of the paperwork package first thing monday, get it filled out and then over to the processing place in time to start on tuesday.

riiiight.