it was in a knitting bag.  which is not a good thing as i would not have put it in there, which means it came off in there and i didn’t notice, or else i have forgoten a whole deliberation.  or something.  but it’s back.  i am reluctant a little to wear it now, after its two consecutive weekends vacationing.  it’s not expensive, but it is my current favorite. but what’s the point of a favorite you can’t wear for fear of losing it?  what’s wrong with this picture?

worked all day on cleaning up, okay, half a day on cleaning up, okay sorting, really, and all i got done was through the jewelery collection.  it’s not worth anything; i have a vintage costume jewelery collection, see, which began with my mother’s things and grew with various others’ mothers’ things, and now that i’m a certified middle aged woman myself, continues apace, which i swept into a something two hurricane seasons ago and just left there.  here it’s been almost two years, with another hurricane season starting this week, and i’m finally getting around to sorting it back out.  but i didn’t get anything else done, didn’t get the back room cleared out for studio use again, didn’t get things cleaned, i’m never going to be able to get a leg up on this house. i just move things around.  the dust bunnies grow so big they don’t even blow around, they have to be swept up like golf balls.  after a couple of years everything becomes a surprise again. (thank you, quentin, that’s not what you said, but not unlike.)

i hope that’s what happens to my favorite ring, only sooner, surprise!  i thought last weekend that i had lost it and had a fit, but it turned up in my watch repository, with the watches with dead batteries in them, and i was so glad.  yesterday i got batteries in all the watches ($$) and the day before visited baubles and mentioned that i thought i had lost the ring but found it and we all sighed.  but i don’t have it anymore.  i took it off on saturday night somewhere in the house, i presume, most likely when i got home and bathed, but it hasn’t been seen since.  not anywhere i sorted out today.  i can’t imagine where i put it this time, it’s not in the watch holder, only running watches in there now.  i couldn’t find it sunday morning.  i sure hope it reappears again; it probably will. i sorted out all the jewelery so i could bring to the surface things to wear with it this summer since i’m wearing my collection again. only now the ring is on vacation.  sigh.

no studio either.  no painting, i put an easel in the dining room so i could use the skylight for artmaking, that was last weekend too, and i haven’t used it once. i never seem to have time when the sun is up.  oh well, i suppose i can use the chandelier, can’t i, who needs light, i’ve never had light before.  and tomorrow i go to work for a full day for the first time in over 5 months.  so no light then.  chandelier it is.

fulltime work, 8 weeks of it.  and then what?  and then what? i keep telling myself that this is all so perfect and i am so good at it and am so appreciated, it’s ridiculous to think it won’t all work out, somehow. somehow. a teaching job will come along. something will come along. something will.

sort of.  nothing to say.  battling the grumps, worrying about getting work, worrying that this whole teaching experiment is failing, yada yada yada.  still can’t type.