i am sitting in a room.  i am sitting in a pine panelled dorm in brigadoon, a roommate asleep in another single bed nearby. we are resting, i assume, in preparation for the new year celebrations, which are to begin this evening with the brigadoon follies, a spectacle i had planned to miss, but that now i think i will take in.  not much sleep last night as the natives were restless below, but then this afternoon was for naps, so we shall see.  and i intend to skip dinner this evening as something has got to give, other than my stomach.  the abundance of food has not been agreeable.

once again, this has not been the vacation i had envisioned, and i shall do something about that beginning as soon as i return home, but it has been a nice one, anyway, and ever so much better than sitting at home.  i can watch the world go by up close here, and impress upon myself that it is not just my location that isolates me, but me myself.  the nicest times are when i have people around me, laughing, as when i drove us all to yarn circle;  those are also the scarcest times. i must do something about that, too.

and my stomach, must do something about that.  do. do. do.

here are some things to do:
eat well (!)
strengthen ankle
contra
watercolor and/or carve
plan little/middle class

..going back to brigadoon in two days…bouncy, bouncy, bouncy…

winding back from here.

.....goin’ back to brasstown tomorrow…bouncy bouncy bouncy…coincides with this...whee!....wanna stay a second week for this but don’t know if i can swing it….bouncy bouncy zing!...

flying to woolfcamp in santa cruz!  a whole week in nocal for mee!!!

can it really be a three year anniversary when i don’t post here much anymore?

i gto to brasstown with little trouble, although driving was another of those completely-on-faith experiences that, as they always do, worked out just fine in the end. i got first pick of the beds, met two of my roommates (both of whom are serious dancers,or so it would seem) and immediately repaired to the coffeerroom to geek out.  the geek refuge.  i checkedrto see if i could take pics and vids, set up britekite to show me here, and here i am. dinner is at 6, with a short meeting thereafter and then the first open dance of the evening.

gulp.

my foot hurts. the one that always hurts these days, but it’s really hurting some now. probably from its immobility in the car for 10 hours? at any rate, it may prove (in?)convenient.  i did bring a rehearsal skirt, at least i remembered that far.  i wonder if i will spend the week in the corner? at least i plan to end my evenings by posting here and uploading whatever i’ve gotten that day.or that’s the plan.

so here i am. just like when i’m home. only i’m here.

had to sit out the open dance as my foot has suddenly swollen up to grapefruit size. now what?

1.) How old were you 10 years ago? 46
2.) Where did you go to school? University of South Florida
3) Where did you work?: University of South Florida
4) Where did you live? this house
5.) Where did you hang out? philosophy dept.
6.) Did you wear glasses? yes
7.) Who was your best friend? Joanne
8.) How many tattoos did you have? 0
9.) How many piercings did you have? 0
10) What car did you drive?: 80something toyota cressida
11.) Had you been to a real party? not for years
12.) Had you had your heart broken? not for years
—————-5 years ago—————-
1.) How old were you?: 51
2.) Where did you go to school? same
3.) Where did you work? USF St. Pete
4.) Where did you live? same
5.) Where did you hang out? LYS.
6.) Did you wear glasses? yes
7.) Who was your best friend? no one
8.) How many piercings? 2 (ears)
9.) How many tattoos did you have?: 0
10.) Had you been to a real party?: same
11.) What car did you drive?: 99 corolla
12.) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?: single
————————2 years ago—————————-
1.) How old were you?: 54
2.) Where did you go to school? taught elementary school art
3.) Where did you work? taught elementary school art where i didn’t like
4.)Where did you live? same
5.) Where did you hang out?: online
6.) Did you wear glasses? couldn’t afford them
7.) Who was your best friend? no one
8.) How many tattoos did you have?: 0
9.) How many piercings did you have? 2
10.) What car did you drive?: same
11.) Had your heart been broken? same
12.) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? single
——————————Today——————————
1.) How old are you?: 56
2.) Where do you go to school? still teach
3.) Where do you work? still teach, where i do like
4.) Where do you live? same
5.) Do you wear glasses? getting some this month
6.) Where do you hang out? online
7.) Do you talk to your old friends? no
8.) How many piercings do you have: 2
9.) How many tattoos?: 0
10.) What kind of car do you have? still corolla
11.) Has your heart been broken? repeatedly
12.) Are you Single/Taken/Married/Divorce? still single

Where is your mobile phone? plugged in in the car
Where is your significant other? which one?
Your hair colour? redbrownblondegrey, or so say my kids
Your mother? lamented
Your father? gone
Your favorite thing? um….?
Your dream last night? I don’t
Your dream goal? find some community irl again
The room you’re in? bedroom
Your hobby? Knitting
Your fear? losing job/house…losing
Where do you want to be in 6 years? here?  no. there.
Where were you last night? here
What you’re not? monosyllabic
One of your wish-list items? um, things?
Where you grew up? Daly City, CA (outside SF)
The last thing you did? drank milk
What are you wearing? nightgown
Your TV? 15 years old and converted from a rabbit
Your pets? nonexistant
Your computer? two laptops, a tablet, a kid’s olpc xo, and an ancient dell.
Your mood? Exhausted
Missing someone? everyone.
Your car? 99 corolla with bonks, and things falling off.
Something you’re not wearing? skirts
Favourite shop? out of business
Your summer? quiet
Love someone? not now
Your favourite colour? red
When is the last time you laughed? i don’t know
When is the last time you cried? today